The Living Tombstone It's Been So Long song lyrics

I dunno what I was thinking,

Leaving my child behind,

Now I suffer the curse and now I am blind

With all this anger, guilt and sadness,

Coming to haunt me forever,

I can't wait for the cliff at the end of the river

Is this revenge I am seeking,

Or seeking someone to avange me

Stuck in my own paradox I wanna set myself free

Maybe I should chase and find

before they'll try to stop it

It won't be long before I'll become a puppet

It's been so long,

Since I last have seen my son

lost to this monster

to the man behind the slaughter

Since you've been gone

I've been singing this stupid song

So I could ponder

The sanity of your mother

I wish I lived in the present

With the gift of my past mistakes

But the future keeps luring in like a pack of snakes

Your sweet little eyes, your little smile, is all I remember

Those fuzzy memories mess with my temper

Justification is killing me

But killing isn't justified

What happened to my son, I'm terrified

It lingers in my mind and the thought keeps on getting bigger,

I'm sorry my sweet baby, I wish I've been there.

It's been so long,

Since I last have seen my son

lost to this monster

to the man behind the slaughter

Since you've been gone

I've been singing this stupid song

So I could ponder

The sanity of your mother.