The Divine Comedy Long Slow Suicide song lyrics

i am a person of survival

but growing up that was not really my tittle

a dead soul who was screaming for revival

a young girl who became suicidal

I felt the hits and the kicks of society

Probaly the reason why I suffer from anxiety

I was never in the form of perfection

So I became the best example of neglection

They called Me names from fat bitch to white trash

to other shit I won't say it's that bad

They call me up and would always need back up

call my a slut and say my family was jacked up

death threats every time I logged it

always on some other shit

damn here we go again

I was already alone

now Im looking for a friends

got no friends

so here I am

wishing it would end

and it didn't, it never did

was always something

everytime I felt Good they would remind me I was nothing

everytime I was down they couldnt help themselves but kick me,

it tore me a fucking part

took all the fight I had left in me

I had enough I was so fucking done

I couldn't face all the drama

so I decided to run

but you can't run forever

eventually you get tired

so I just stared at the rope wishing my life would expire

I mean fuck it if I am really nothing then nobody would stop me from taking that rope and jumping

so I took it

tied it round my little throat and proceeded to jump

when my mum burst on the door

I didn't know what to Do I didn't know what to say

I saw the tears in her eyes

I felt the pain go away

how could I be so selfish

how could I think that I was nothing when the person who gave me life obviously thought I was something

now I prey, prey for the people who never saw the light

prey for the people who still cry at night

and those people who think of my words like protection

think of them as the light when u fight depression

coz I know what it's lile

Ive been there before

but for every closed room

Im here to open a door

Im here to open a door