Julien Baker Funeral Pyre song lyrics

I wake up with the same pain every night,

Digging in ashes and out of sight.

Clearing my chest for something to burn,

Ash from a decorative urn you keep in your mantle piece

Like a trophy for everything.

We learn eventually.

Call me a coward but I'm too scared to leave

'cause I want you to be the last thing I see

Call me a coward but I'm too scared to leave

Watched you pouring lighter fluid out onto the leaves

And I would have loved you with the dying fire

If I let you smother me now, to the embers

Frost bite turning my limbs as black as cinders, a funeral pyre

But I would have stayed, if you had asked me to

Stood outside until my lips turned blue

I wouldn't have blamed you

For leaving me there on the porch

While you drink gasoline

Because its what you needed so bad

But its true.

There's nothing that we could do.