Cam Meekins You song lyrics

Dear well, I probably shouldn't say your name

I just wanted to tell you that a lot of things have changed

The other day I found this letter that you wrote to me, so ima read it

I swear it's like the sweetest poetry

So look, you always saw the bright side of things

And you taught me to appreciate the nice silent things

Remember I was just a kid trapped and forgotten

But you believed in me, that'll never be forgotten

And you was older so your words spoke loud

As I look back at it now I gotta find you in that crowd

So what a mess, look at me with all the stress

If you ran into me now I'd probably never find happiness

We used to party but I never really drank

I just went into the bathroom and I poured it down the sink

And now I grab the bottle even tighter when I hold it

I gave my soul to you, but you turned around and sold it for your own life

I guess I'm being selfish now

But I got a lot of clout from this fucking rapping style

You told me that I changed, I'll admit it

But its strange cause I'm sitting thinking you the one to blame

So I hit you on your cell just to know it went to voicemail

So how we gonna communicate, I'll never know

I guess I gotta let it go

Don't cry just go to that place

You needed time so I gave you space

I'll wonder if I'll ever get to talk to you

I'm doing this for me yo, not for you And I just wanna know if you can hear me

So maybe turn it up, speak a little clearly

No matter how many songs I make

You gonna never hear me say that I made a mistake

And that I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart

You put up with a lot it was a problem from the start

And even if you took me back it wouldn't be the same

I'll even get a tattoo for you of your name

And you know I never meant to be an asshole

I guess it's greener where the other people's grass grows

But wait a minute, why you wonder if I'll stay committed?

I used to visit you when you was at your baby sitting

But now I need a chaperon to even get me through the day

The minute that you left I had so much to say

I never got the chance to even tell you that I loved you

Fuck you, now I only see you when I"m looking up above

You must be selfish to take your own life

What about me and the other people that I thought you liked

And now that you're gone sometimes I wanna do it too

I can't, I gotta stay here just to spite you

I'll write you when, damn I'm not like you

We all got demons I wish that you could fight too

You lost the battle and you tossed it in

But you're up there in the sky and I'm down without a friend

Do't cry just go to that place

You needed time so I gave you space

I'll wonder if I'll ever get to talk to you

I'm doing this for me yo, not for you